This is a HUGE accomplishment! Even though I still have many struggles, I am not even remotely the same person I was 5 years ago.
5 years ago I barely knew how to smile. Today, I do.
5 years ago I was terrified of joy. Today, I am filled with it.
5 years ago I knew about God. Today, I know him and love him with all my heart.
I have been changed, renewed, restored, and brought back to life. It's a beautiful thing!
These 5 years have been full of struggle and tears and pain but it has most definitely been worth it. Victory doesn't come without a fight.
So today, I celebrate my victory. I celebrate the hope and life that Jesus has given me. Again, it is a beautiful thing!
Thank you to everyone who has helped me along this journey! I wouldn't be here without you!
In honor of today, I wrote a poem that I would like to share with you. . .
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5 years ago my life changed radically.
I cut myself for [almost] the last time.
I turned from my razors
And looked to my Savior
And for the first time
I found hope.
5 years ago I was literally at the end of my rope.
I had plans to die
But instead I chose life
And I haven't looked back since.
Now, it hasn't been easy.
In fact, these 5 years are some of the hardest I've faced.
But standing in the place I'm at now
I can tell you, the struggle was worth it.
5 years ago I was trapped in sadness.
My skies were always gray
And I didn't think gladness was even a possibility.
I was certain that nothing could ever change
And joy was so far out of my range
That it sounded like a sick joke.
But it was during that time that my Lord spoke
And told me that I was loved.
At first he made me angry
Because what he said was so outrageous
That it couldn't possibly be true.
But it was.
I was deeply loved.
And that changed everything.
5 years ago God breathed life back into my lungs
And songs I hadn't sung for years
Returned to my lips.
Color was painted back into my gray world
And suddenly I was no longer the same girl I was before.
I was made new and complete
And his breath tasted sweet to my soul.
My broken heart was made whole
And it started beating again.
5 years ago my life changed radically.
I walked head on into freedom and hope
And I will NEVER look back.
