And so it starts. . .

So I am starting a blog. I've never had one before but I'm going to try it and just see how it goes. I figure it will be a good way to keep people updated on my current endeavors, especially now as I head off to Kairos. I really want to just jump in and start talking about Kairos but first I want to explain the title of my blog.

There's this skit by The Skit Guys called God's Chisel. I love it because it can say what I feel better than I can. It's like I ask God to come in and remove all the bad parts of me and to make me into his masterpiece but then when he starts, it hurts. Bad. And I resist. But in my heart I know that he's more than worth the pain. Lately, God's been doing a lot of chiseling in me. And I'm seeing myself slowly become the person that I strive to be, the person God wants me to be. But I know that there's still a heck of a lot of chiseling and breaking to be done before I even come close to being that person. So this is just a blog that will follow me on my spiritual journey, as he chisels away. That's pretty much it. You should watch that skit!   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AhfUzodLRvk

Ok. So now, Kairos. I move to Kansas in just 2 1/2 weeks!!! Holy cow! I don't really know how to describe what I'm feeling (apparently that's not one of my strong suits. . .) I'm excited. Really excited. I mean, these people are going to become my family and my best friends. And God is going to do incredible things! Whether it's in Kansas or Honduras or wherever I end up next summer, God is going to change me while using me to change the world! Yeah, it's exciting! But at the same time, I'm scared out of my mind. I have to live with a host family which I know will be good eventually but still, if you were being thrown into a house with a bunch of strangers to live with them for the next 10 months, you'd be scared too. And it's also scary because I'm going into it knowing that there's a ton of garbage in my life that needs to be chipped away but like I said, it's painful, and I'm afraid to confront that. BUT, I also just feel ready to get down there and get into a routine and continue with life if that makes sense. So I don't know, I guess maybe I'm just anxious. A mix of excited and nervous and impatient . . . that seems to fit.

So that's my first blog. I don't really know how you're supposed to end them but, yeah. This new season of my life shall be interesting, if nothing else.